In the wake of the tragic events in Newtown, Connecticut on Friday, December 14, 2012, I’ve read many posts railing against a power that allows innocents to be senselessly slaughtered. In this post, I’m sharing my thoughts and what I know to be Truth, in the hope that it may be helpful to someone.
For me, God is a concept, not some external entity or being, puppetmaster of sorts, rewarding me when it’s pleased, punishing me when it’s not. My concept of God aligns more closely with theoretical quantum physicist Dr. Amit Goswami’s description of the “realm of unlimited possibilities.” I’m not a physicist, or a scholar of any kind, and this is my understanding of what he says:
Everything in the Universe is created from the realm of unlimited possibilities. When we begin making limitations on those possibilities, we are creating that which we see expressed in the physical world. When Unlimited Possibilities are shaped by limitations in perceptions, we begin seeing a solar system, a galaxy, a human being, a dog, a flower, a planet…you get the picture. Because everything that is in the physical world is, in effect, unlimited possibilities shaped by limitations we perceive, we all come from the same source and we are all One.
This is my understanding of the concept, the idea, the abstraction of God. My preferred synonym for God is Self, and I like Divine a lot, too. Just to keep us on the same page.
I love to gaze upon the heavens. In the daytime, I love to watch how clouds float across the sky, sometimes wispy, sometimes fluffy. I love the play of the Sun’s rays through the clouds making them appear sometimes golden, other times pink or violet. It’s not that the Sun favors any cloud over another in bestowing its splendor. It just beams light, and the clouds catch and express that light uniquely. None of this is personal, and all of it is splendid! The Sun, the clouds, the light are each a Perfect Expression of Self Expressing Perfectly. Each one of those Perfect Expressions is Self having the experience of Sun, cloud, light. That’s how I see it.
In the same way, human beings are Self having a human experience. The interesting thing about my human experience is that I tend to forget whence I came from and believe that this human experience is all there is. When I’m stuck in that belief, that’s when it seems that a power outside of myself is capriciously pushing me this way and that, rewarding me or punishing me according to some secret code for which I didn’t get my decoding ring. It is at these times that I’m bewildered by the seeming chaos of my existence.
“But I did all the right things…”
“Life is not fair!”
“What the freakin’ hell is going on????”
I am but one small spark of Self expressing perfectly, eternally. Even though I know, on a profound level, that I am an expression of that Perfection, it’s not easy to hold on to that remembrance. I still sink into the amnesia of suffering, despair, frustration…frequently. Through much practice, I succeed more often than I used to in remembering that I am a Perfect Expression of Self in a human experience. I remember more often that each and every one of us, regardless of appearance, is a Perfect Expression of Self. That’s when it becomes clearer to me that we are all One, and that it’s forgetfulness of our common source that leads me to make choices that harm, hurt, humiliate, devastate. When I’m in that state of amnesia, it’s hard for me to see that I am engaging in self harm.
There is no outside entity, no power, higher or otherwise, that allows tragedy.
So, how do I, a tiny drop in the vast ocean of Self deal with such an event? First I remember that I am One. Through prayer. Through meditation. Through music. I remember.
Then, I contact my elected representatives, urging a change and a uniformity in gun ownership regulations. My feeling is that this is a small step I can take to encourage discussion and change on a broader level. The idea that access to lethal weapons by the general population is a right boggles my mind. That’s just me.
While we’re at it, let’s address the area of mental health. Let’s bring compassion into the equation. Just as we are exhibiting an outpouring of compassion and grief for those who have been so brutally assaulted and stricken, the victims and the loved ones they’ve left behind, let’s cultivate compassion and suspend judgment in our everyday interactions. Let’s make it easier to seek help for any reason – and we all need help for some reason at some point of our human experience!
Let’s stop the blame and fingerpointing for the tragedies of the world. Instead, let’s do whatever it is in our power to do, to shift the understanding. To shift the experience. To clearly see that harm to others is harm to one’s own self. There is no such thing as too small or too large. There is only what we are each willing and able to offer.
My point is this: There is no external God that allows a tragedy, and it is within the power of each and every one of us to effect change.